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Watchmage Returns!!!!

After my last story arc of Watchmage, I decided to take a break to work on the novelized version. Demand was high enough for a new Watchmage story that I came back. And so today is… WATCHMAGE WEEK!!...

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Nine Months

It was nine months ago today that Valerie died. I haven’t written anything about her in a while, though she is always on my mind. For a while, I was marking the days, then the months on Facebook. I...

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Happy Anniversary Valerie

Today is the anniversary of the day Valerie and I met. We went to a little Italian place in Ossining called Capri and to Starbucks afterwards. It was the best date that I ever had. We had been talking...

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A Delayed Eulogy for Valerie

One year ago today, my girlfriend Valerie passed away.  It was very sudden. Within three days she was gone.  I didn’t give a eulogy at her funeral, because I was too broken hearted to speak, so I’m...

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New Story: If You Leave Me

Hey there dear readers.  I have a story, “If You Leave Me,” in the anthology Twisted Love. If you don’t want to invest the money in buying Song of Simon, or the time in reading “The Watchmage of Old...

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The Collected Works of Valerie Z. Lewis

For the past few weeks I have been working hard on Valerie’s anthology.  It finally went live on Kindle last week. This is the most important thing that I have ever done.  I’ve never stressed about my...

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Photographs and Memories

Earlier this week I visited my father.  He is moving to Las Vegas next month, and needs a lot of help packing.  I mean, a lot of help.  There is a ton of junk. Much of the stuff is my mother’s and...

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Valerie’s Anthology is now in paperback

Hey everyone. I just wanted to say that Valerie’s anthology is now in kindle and paperback. Here are the links. Kindle:...

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The Past Comes Back

I don’t write many personal posts anymore, but something happened this week that shook me so bad, I’m still in “Crisis Mode.” For a little over two months now, I’ve been dating someone. Things have...

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Damn You, Professor Chaos!

I watched a little too much South Park last night, including the ones with Butters/Prof. Chaos. I have decided that he is my arch enemy. As one friend said, “I’ve never met anyone as clenched as you.”...

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Happy Birthday Valerie

Tomorrow would’ve been Val’s 38th birthday. It’s still her birthday, even though she’s not around to celebrate it anymore. It’s been a while since I talked about her. It’s still hard. Valerie was my...

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The Things You Forget

I wrote this yesterday, but I wanted to share it because it’s still hurting me. I expect that this will only get worse with time. January 24th, 2013, 3 years, 3 months, and 3 days ago, my partner...

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A Beautiful Day, A Hard Day

Today Mercy College’s English Department has its induction ceremony for the English Honors Society, also known as Sigma Tau Delta. Part of the ceremony is an award called The Valerie Z Lewis Award for...

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She Smoked Menthols…

She smoked menthols. Newports, I think, but they might have been Newport Lights, or 100s. It’s been almost four years, and these details have faded away. She liked to wear black, but she had this tan,...

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Guilt or the Void: Facing a Lover’s Death

On Tuesday it was four years since Valerie died. I admit, it’s getting easier to accept, though I still had a good cry on the way home from the grave. Certain songs still trigger tears, and I dream...

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Happy 40th Birthday Val

Friday would have been my fiance Valerie’s 40th birthday. She passed away suddenly on January 24th, 2013. It still haunts me. I don’t think that you ever get over something like that. I don’t think you...

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5 years

Today marks the 5th year anniversary of my fiance Valerie’s death. I don’t have the spoons to really talk about it. Maybe tomorrow. I always have nightmares about it, but for the past week, I’ve been...

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